Racing Mind
I am so sick and tired of the same problems that face me everyday. I cannot even think straight at these times. Anger just rises and my blood boils. But for some reason I am able to keep my cool and think. People, and I mean certain people know what I mean. Sometimes they do not know how good they have it. They get the best of me, always. It just sucks that i cannot receive the same from others. What really gets to me is that whenever i try to brighten someones day by telling them you will be o.k and talk about issues, i always get the backhand and I always receive the shitty end. Fucking Crazy Right? How can you look at me and tell me i am not there for you if i’m being pushed away and getting a shitty ending. Being unnoticed for certain acts and unappreciated is one thing that makes me cringe sometimes. seriously, do you not see that certain things are being done for you because i have that love and respect for you so that you can be happy. “I’m not good enough” is a phrase that runs through my mind occasionally and I hear it a lot. You know, in my mind I’ll love a person and be friends with someone based on their personality not their looks. I have a girlfriend who is very self consceince about herself. Sad i know, because she is a beautiful girl. But for some reason she thinks she is not good enough, and it grinds my gears. You know man, is pisses me off the fact that she thinks i want the “perfect” girl. I’m not perfect. She calls her beauty and figure a flaw. Huh? Since when did i complain it was a flaw? It angers me so much that she doubts her beauty and i do not know the fuck i am going to make her think otherwise. She complains about her teeth, hair, skin, figure, eyes, nose and everything in between. She thinks all these things need to be altered to fit the “perfect” girl. The looks do not dictate if you are perfect, the confidence and the personality make the woman. In my heart i know you are the perfect girl. I HATE the fact that she thinks i want someone else because SHE doesn’t believe she is good enough for me. The fuck? if you weren’t good enough, then why will i subject myself to this shit and stay with you ? Don’t you think if i wanted someone perfect, i would leave your ass and search? Obviously i’m here and i love you because i know you are beautiful and you have a gentle warm heart and know you are good enough. I know you aren’t of same ethnicity as me and that does not make a difference nor does it bother me. I see you as a person not as “another race”. I have experienced new things that i thought i would never experience. I pretty much live another life when I’m with your family. I don’t care what others think and i personally do not have time to deal with everyone and their ignorance. I will never put you down about these things and you know it. You feel insecure because you see other women and people with what they have. Fuck it be you, and you do it better anyway. I love they way you are without any complains. I just wish you saw what i see everyday, which is a beautiful woman that i call my girlfriend.
“Dinner is ready!”.
FOOD FOOD FOOD FOOD.
(Source: jackstroubleinatanktop)
